Aging & Dying, Life of Carmen, Uncategorized

The learning curve

It’s a steep one, the learning curve of love: an asymptote alway reaching for the vertical axis but never quite, never just quite there. My curve lifted visibly off the horizontal when I finally hit the wall on treasuring myself through my lovers’ eyes so far above and beyond my own. It’s just too painful. …

Aging & Dying, Life of Carmen, Non Moms, Uncategorized

Procreation meditation

My period was almost three weeks late. It got me thinking. I thought I was reconciled to my offspringless state, at peace with that decision. But as days ticked by, crampless and dry, a fetal image formed in my head. I really didn’t want to be pregnant…but if I was… well hey! in less than …

Aging & Dying, Culture and Art, Karmic Economics, Life of Carmen, Uncategorized

In Roberts Creek on the Day out of Time

Set Time free to spin and spiral as it will. I am so tired, of  confining Time. In charts and lines, in boxes and tiny jewelled cages strapped to the wrist’s pulsing vein. It restricts intuition, impairs telepathy, inhibits life’s flow. My belly knows suppertime, my eyelids know bedtime, my body feels the passage of …