Aging & Dying, Culture and Art, Karmic Economics, Life of Carmen, Uncategorized

Subdividing time

I am thinking about how time is infinitely divisible. Of course each moment stands alone but is also part of the unstoppable flow, a point but also a wave, like light. And then sometimes I catch myself out thinking, was it worth it, all that pain and frustration, all that “wasted time”? So say that …

Aging & Dying, Life of Carmen, Uncategorized

The learning curve

It’s a steep one, the learning curve of love: an asymptote alway reaching for the vertical axis but never quite, never just quite there. My curve lifted visibly off the horizontal when I finally hit the wall on treasuring myself through my lovers’ eyes so far above and beyond my own. It’s just too painful. …

Aging & Dying, Life of Carmen, Non Moms, Uncategorized

Procreation meditation

My period was almost three weeks late. It got me thinking. I thought I was reconciled to my offspringless state, at peace with that decision. But as days ticked by, crampless and dry, a fetal image formed in my head. I really didn’t want to be pregnant…but if I was… well hey! in less than …